The Wolf dressed in Sheep’s Clothing

My Inner strength and Self Worth was strong now and I was in a good place emotionally and had some friends set me up on a blind date not long after my previous relationship ended. Things moved too fast but all the signs and Intuition were on point for me and I had been alone and unloved all my life. I had never been swept of my feet by romance like this before and when it presented itself I didn’t realise it was another lesson, I saw it as my wish fulfilment.

It was perfect, for the first time in my life it was hearts and flowers, it was text messages every morning telling me how beautiful I was and how much I was loved and I was addicted and all in. There were red flags however they were different and I didn’t recognise them as such at the time. He had experienced a lot of trauma as a child as I had and we were both broken and searching for love. He had been through a very bad break up and divorce and focused on his financial means and made derogatory remarks constantly about his mother and her weight however because I had lost so much weight now I chose not to see those red flags because I didn’t want too. I wanted to have the perfect relationship, the love, the financial stability the happily ever after and I was not prepared to sabotage that.

There were red flags with my children but they stared small and it was nice for the first time in my life it was good to have a partner that was a support and actively engaged in the family life. There were so many positives and we were both committed to work together for the relationship and the blended family network that we were creating. There were other benefits too and my mother was very happy with my choice in partner and she often made comments that he was way too good for me and was concerned that I would not be able to keep him and constantly would be obsessed with me putting on weight and this being an end to the relationship.

The relationship moved forward very quickly and I was proposed too on my 40th birthday in front of family and friends and for the first time in my life I felt loved and adored by my mother and partner and this was finally my wish coming true and my life was complete. I was in a fairy tale bubble and I was happy to give over all my power and control around my finances and everything else for this relationship. it was so nice and a reprieve to have someone actively take a role in the family as the head of the household and relieve me of some of the household responsibilities that I had always known.

I gave my all to this relationship, I went through doing the hard work with several projects and passions close to his heart and trusted him completely. I remember he had gone to a workshop experience called Real Men and encouraged me to go and I went all in and completed Real Woman 1 and 2 and gained so much strength and courage that ultimately led to the demise because whatever we had together which was so strong it was only a matter of time until the red flags got bigger.