Looking back I don’t know how I gained the strength or the thought of my actions at this time but it has been an element of my life that I recognise at times when I made decisions outside of myself to guide me at these times and move forward and were instrumental to my life moving forward. I summoned the strength to write down in words in a letter promising and begging that I would forgive my father on the one condition that he sent me someone to love me unconditionally, my one and only, the love of my life. I tucked this letter into his arms in the coffin with my Pandy that I sent and returned to him to keep him safe and comfort in his journey ahead and a symbol that I didn’t need it anymore because it had kept me safe and comfort in my most difficult times and I had set myself free and gave myself wings to fly.
“The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is to love and be
loved in return”
― Moulin Rouge
