I was in the Rehab facility for about 6 weeks as an inpatient and committed to the program and really dug deep to get the help and do the work because I wanted to gain back my control of my life. I knew my life wasn’t going to look prettier but I needed to recover and heal and start the journey back to me.
Probably the biggest reason I put down to my recovery was the correct diagnosis by my Psychiatrist and getting on the right medication. I had been on antidepressants for years following the birth of my children and being diagnosed with depression but I had never been properly diagnosed and therefore was obviously not doing what it needed. I also realised that when you drink alcohol it counteracts the anti-depressant medication so it was a double pronged approach.
Regardless of all this I realised that I had good reasons to be struggling with mental health and for me who was so introverted and never spoke, to have to engage and be vulnerable in front of strangers and having the courage to tell my story was incredibly hard and painful. I knew that I had too and so I just dug deep into my courage and pulled out the strength to go all in and it didn’t get easier but every time the physical pain was a little more tolerable, or I just got used to it and was always very compliant as usual.
